Wondrous days
Of eternal hope
That leave us all alone
Frighting nights
Of calm abroad
Fill our hearts
With nothing but sorrow
But on that evening
Among thunderstorms in May
We saw that perhaps
There’s some glory in pain
© Gabriel Berm
Wondrous days
Of eternal hope
That leave us all alone
Frighting nights
Of calm abroad
Fill our hearts
With nothing but sorrow
But on that evening
Among thunderstorms in May
We saw that perhaps
There’s some glory in pain
© Gabriel Berm
When the stars
Seemed a little brighter
And clocks
were ticking faster
I felt sometimes
Your hand on top of mine
When mornings cried light
And your heart
Beat closer to mine
That’s when I knew
That your eyes
Time defied
© Gabriel Berm
Your eyes were as big as my doubts
Your words less hard than I thought
The love
Unrequited as it must
Yet my hands were shaking as you talked
Your smile prevented me to cry
The reason why
Shall only be known by the stars in the sky
For all of those things are barely memories
And I’m not the one you want in your routine
My God what I would give for you to see me
In the way that you see him
My God what I would give
For you to say the words “I do too”
When I say I love you
© Gabriel Berm
There’s a multitude in your eyes
And in your smile
There’s life where it must
And lust where it’s just
The heart beats louder before it stops
Yet love is fainter before it’s gone
For all our troubles are no more
Than the multitude in your eyes
Before they’re shut
© Gabriel Berm
Unrequited love
There’s never enough
To bring our hearts and minds to sorrow
To make us long for what might’ve been
For making us cry for what never was
Hoping for the solitude to come to pass
Thinking that we belong in someone’s arms
For misery and hope
are both sides of the same coin
It’s only dark because dawn is close
© Gabriel Berm
After driving for hours we finally got to the camping park, we barely got to see Rotorua, it was starting to get dark. Emma doesn’t really like to go out at night, she likes to rest and read rather than going out for a drink. I parked the camping van — which was more like a repurposed Toyota SUV than an actual camper — near to a beautiful clear lake. I went to pay for the night and then came back. Emma was asleep, she didn’t even notice we were at the park already. When I came back Emma was taking photos of the lake.
“Nice place, huh?” I said with some pride in myself for picking the best spot there.
“It’s so pretty,” she replied without looking at me.
“Wanna eat something? We can have chicken-flavored instant noodles or chicken flavored instant noodles from another brand,” I said somewhat joking.
“Surprise me,” she said smiling.
As I was boiling the water at the “kitchen,” Emma grabbed my ukulele and attempted to play it.
“Why is it so hard to play? It’s just four strings!” She said now looking at me.
“You’ll get the hang of it, we still have a month left from our trip,” I replied.
“Yeah, it ended up not being as awkward as I thought,” Emma said while “tuning” the instrument.
I poured the boiling water inside each noodle container and placed a plate on top of their lids.
“Awkward?” I asked.
“My sister said going halfway across of the world with a friend, alone, would be awkward,” she replied.
“I knew you would come, you tend not to care what other people think,” I replied.
“I don’t. It’s just, everyone back home thinks we’re having sex all day long but in reality, we just eat instant noodles and you sing me songs with this thing,” she said tapping the ukulele.
“Do you wanna have sex all day long?” I asked jokingly.
“Shut up! I’m being serious,” she said hiding the giggle.
The noodles were ready, I gave one to Emma and we started eating. Emma couldn’t eat without listening to music and since no one has yet discovered how to sing and eat simultaneously she hummed. Desire from Ryan Adams was playing, she loved Ryan Adams.
As I was opening the lid I noticed how clear the sky was. You don’t see that many stars in San Francisco. You’re more likely to bump into a Hollywood star than seeing an actual star. I told Emma to get out and check the sky. As her eyes were hooked on constellations which names I’m too ignorant to know. I could see a perfect reflection of each and every star on her deep brown eyes.
“Wanna stay out for a while?” I asked her.
“Sure,” she replied.
I took out a pair of foldable chairs and placed the two next to each other. I also took out a can of mosquito repellent and sprayed both of us. Now we both smelled like what Off thinks eucalyptus smells like.
“Do you ever think about that day?” She said not looking at me but the sky.
“What day? The day?” I said.
“Yeah, at Patrick’s house” she replied.
“We were drunk it was just a kiss,” I said. “Or, was it?” I continued.
“Yeah yeah, just a kiss,” she said softly.
“We could kiss now,” I said regretting it as I finished the sentence.
“I mean if we kissed at that party at Patrick’s house which had nothing special… I’d say this view demands a kiss,” she said, also seemingly regretting saying it.
I looked at her, our chairs were less than 2 inches apart, now she was looking at me. We kissed. Then as I was starting to go back to my original position, she held my hand. We were holding hands. And we fell asleep while listening from the distance “Just in Time” by Nina Simone playing on Emma’s phone inside the van.
© Gabriel Berm
May the pains of today
Be the joys of tomorrow
May the life that you long
Be better than you thought of
May your smile
Shine brighter every night
And may your heart
Be cherished as it must
© Gabriel Berm
When love seemed to be in the cards
And I met your mom and dad
When I discovered the kiss
And you discovered me
When you liked my jokes
And your eyes were bright
It feels like 100 years ago
When I had someone to talk
And you called late at night
When you told me I wasn’t bad
Yet I still cried for you afterward
It feels like 100 years ago
When our love fell apart
And the tears were my fault
When you kissed him
And I spent months in sorrow
It feels like 100 years ago
© Gabriel Berm
There’s something I like about you, I’m sure there is. There must be. Your eyes? Perhaps. Your smile? I wouldn’t lie if I say it might. Your way of life? That could be somehow. If it’s not all of that then what is what I want? Is it the fact that you’re not with me but you’re with them? Is it the no so tender way you talk to me? Or is it the fact that you just don’t like me?
©️ Gabriel Berm
Las palabras se diluyen en un océano de pensamientos mal habidos. Que fuerte suenan las agujas del reloj cuando la vida se acelera. Que tristes son las primaveras sin verte con tu vestido cereza. El despojo se apodera de las últimas gotas de esperanza que brotan de un corazón desgarrado de latir por los mismos ojos y por los mismos labios. Ahora las mañanas son siempre de resaca y las noches un misterio. Me pierdo en el enigma de las botellas de ron y los ceniceros. La vida al final no es más que una alucinación y el amor, la droga por definición.
©️ Gabriel Berm